YES, IT IS TIME TO WAKE UP MY IDEA.
I've been despondent for the longest period of time. Where has the old crazy, hyper me gone to?! I've been posting emo stuffs and it's time to put an end to that.
This is just a learning phase in life. It's not like I've not gone through this before, right? I can't live life like this any longer. It's not healthy.
I don't deny I still have feelings for you. But so what? Things are not gonna change. You are not gonna come back anymore. So I will just live my life happily, yes, even without you. I will not carry on this despondency anymore.
You don't even care, so why should I? I've been such an idiot, ohgosh!
Nope, I did not regret the times we had. Not at all. I'm just looking forward to the day that I can sing "Over you" by Daughtry with not a single tad bit of fucking heartache. I don't know how long or short that is gonna take me, but I will be strong and not falter to such idiotic reasons, nope, not again.
I've changed. Some might say for better, others might say for worse.
All I know, is that I am definitely on the right track now. I must learn to pick myself up, no matter what situation I am in. And it is selfish of me to have suicidal thoughts, wtf.
This is not my life. My life involves family and friends who loves and care for me. They have a part in this life that I'm living right now, too.
I will let the lyrics of this song finish up my last words.
Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down, like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left, just left me cold and out of breath
I felt if I was in way to deep, guess I let you get the best of me
Well, I never saw it coming, I should have started running,
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you
You took a hammer to these walls, dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away, there was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut, a lot of others opened up
So did my eyes so I could see that you never were the best for me
Well, I never saw it coming, I should have started running,
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you
Well, I never saw it coming, I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
Well, I never saw it coming, I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Well, I'm putting my heart back together
'Cause I got over you and I got over you
And I got over you
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you
To build me up and tear me down, like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left, just left me cold and out of breath
I felt if I was in way to deep, guess I let you get the best of me
Well, I never saw it coming, I should have started running,
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you
You took a hammer to these walls, dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away, there was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut, a lot of others opened up
So did my eyes so I could see that you never were the best for me
Well, I never saw it coming, I should have started running,
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you
Well, I never saw it coming, I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
Well, I never saw it coming, I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure, I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
And now I'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Well, I'm putting my heart back together
'Cause I got over you and I got over you
And I got over you
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you
The lyrics are SO what I wanna express out.
I'm better off without you, more than you know.
I'm indeed slowly getting closure and I guess it's really over, I'm FINALLY getting better.
Now I'm picking up the pieces and spending all of these weeks putting my heart back together.
"So raise a glass to mend all the broken hearts of all my fucked up friends!" - Lady Gaga's Speechless.
Takecare people.
xx
